i know i shouldnt write this here. if you dont want to read it then dont. that's your problem. if you read this and get pissed off again for the millionth time, dont blame me. I know I'm a rude person. but so are you. can't you put yourself in my shoes for once? just try scolding yourself in that way.
***
You are so bloody annoying at times.Yes I'll admit you're usually friendly and nice. Biut when you get pissed you become unreasonable. And it's freaking annoying.When I told you to listen without saying any formalities, it was because you were in a rush, therefore I tried to type faster, to help you. Then when I told you something, you asked me again, which means you weren't paying attention, which is exactly what you told me what not to do. Do you think you're the only person affected? You think I don't think for you before I make a decision? Did I ever force you to do anything? No.I understand you've probably got a short temper or something. But can you just stop thinking of yourself, stop losing your temper, stop bloody coming to bloody conclusions that are obviously not true? Maybe when you're pissed you can't think properly and so everything doesn't seem to make sense, everything seems unfair to you. But for once, couldn't you just place yourself in someone else's shoes first? Maybe I'm being a hypocrite when I'm saying this. You're probably got reasons for being pissed, you've probably got a short temper. You think we want to make your life hard for you? You think we're that evil? If your job's hard, our is just as bad, you know. If you want to negotiate, fine. But why the heck do you have to lose your temper so quickly before you even find out what's going on?Do you really think you're the only person who ever gets pissed and that everyone else is numb to your scolding, your jumping to comclusions, your temper tantrums? Do you think we just remain neutral to it and don't feel a single thing, like zombies or something?You claim you're not angry, it's just that you want to make a point. But do you really mean it? Even if you don't look angry or talk angrily, it's pretty obvious by just looking at what you say. It's obvious through your body language. And even if you mean to emphasise when you use caps, you think I would know? It's not like no one shouts using caps you know. I'm sorry. Maybe you think I'm the one jumping to conclusions. Maybe you think I'm being unfair. Maybe you think I'm picking on you because I'm pissed. Maybe you're thinking what a mean, short-tempered, hypocritical friend you've got here.But seriously, I wrote this to let you know. Maybe you'll just pass it off as me just being pissed, emo, or crapping. I don't expect you to change, because that's just you, and it's not like I'm always 100% right or that everyone should listen to me. I'm human too, I make mistakes, I have feelings that affect my thinking. I have feelings. You aren't the only one who does. Think about it. I don't want to nag, but seriously, you need to know this. Y0u may claim to know this already, but does it mean anything to you at all?***
mini class reunion today. clare,clar,mook,nickneo,ed,yujian/angkukueh and shawn came.
wasn't too bad.
watched WALL.E
saw yj's maths. it's crazy.
had fries and truth/truth at macs.
lost my baking tray and a cookie box (rubbermaid)
i was wondering why it seemed like something was missing when i left macs. didn't think of going back to check.
damn. i must be more careful and less stupid and careless.
already lost so many things before.
!#&^#$%*#
i shall NOT swear ;)
even my mum isn't as depressed over the lost things as me.
i will buy them on monday.
I stopped ranting at | 5:09 AM
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
havent posted for veryveryvery long.
recent stuff:
cross country. i was number 243, came in 223. would have been 222 if i knew i could cut the queue, which shermin managed to do before me (SHE got 222nd) screwed lah, they put us at the back, impossible to overtake, so many people. if i ran in a small group and they timed me my placing would be so much better -.-
saw
staff xunlin before the run, got a lucky handshake from her XD. if you've ever shook her hand before you'll know what its like(: thanks staff!
***
intracomp.
ran through the rain, should have taken a bus but was too rushed to think properly. got soaked, despite trying to shelter my hair with my uniform. (or else it'd be WET under my beret) in the end my hair was soaked too. oh well. took a chance to emo.
when i got to school, put down my soaked stuff, and chionged to change. I think my squad probably thought i was nuts, because...well yeah. i think i was pretty much hyperventilating, because i was worried I would be late, and everyone was either tellling me to hurry go change or asking if i was alright. it was pretty heartening to her tham ask that despite the circumstances. not many people care for me like that.
met kimberly in the toilet, passed her hairnet. lol she already wore the rest of her uniform yet she left not much earlier than me -.- was almost late for first parade. could hear them shouting while i was adjusting my hairnet. swore in front of some NP people, and chionged to the lt area, realised no one was there, bumped into a sir, asked him, ran to hall. dumped my ziplock bag into the valuables box, chionged to fall in, and was interrogated by sgt mae ans yeukho as to the whereabouts of marcus. he was even later than me
TOC was sad. marcus and i didnt pull hard enough, couldnt kick stretcher open for half a minute. screwed up 2 out of 4 1-2-1 drills. and couldnt push the stretcher properly while going down the stairs. pity didnt go for last TOC session the day before. had stupid IVP at nanyang poly from which i chionged back to school with huixian in the rain to do footdrill. good thing i got my squad tee to change into(: it's NICE
case. I STONED. after a too-fast treatment for shock, I stoned. just ventilated heart attack casualty (sgt janson). no reassuarance, no checking avpu, no checking for brain damage. $&$%&. i stoned for my std1 case too i think. for team case.
tabitha, stop stoning. FD. kekanan puseng on the march was on wrong foot. told myself to march off on right foot. screwed. slow reaction. penguined abit i think. why couldnt i cover it up?!?!?! i screwed it up completely.
Overall it wasnt bad i guess. Hera got third, which wasn't too bad considering our standard. I wonder how it was for the std1s' individual cases. I know i pretty much screwed up mine when i didnt put the scissors away and used the wrong bandage in std1 comp.
our trophies and house badges are nice. sgt yeukho's luck hasnt failed us.
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today. sj phototaking. chionged to change. thanks for helping me hand in maths worksheet sheena! (i'm the maths rep. therefore it's evil not to put it in myself. but i was rushing! thanks sheena! =D)
saw some std4s +std3s+std1s in the container toilet. i was the only std2 -.- wth.
lol seahzonglong was asking me where to buy uniform cover. i wonder how his uniform survives getting crumpled the way he carries it around. crapped about footdrill during geog. i think it was sparked off becuase he spelled some word that made it look like berhenti ><13/15 for geog! my index number lols. wahaha that's the highest in our class. szl and enzhi also got 13 i think. not sure who else.
weixin asked me to lend it to her to bring home to photocopy! felt so honoured, though i doubt she can read my writing.
science proj meeting on monday. its a case scenario of a chemical spill in a traffic accident. i'm the paramedic officer!! guess why >< i'm happy, i can slack abit. haha
noodles.
I stopped ranting at | 7:59 AM
heh. had a family gathering on national day.
played taiti in the room. there were a few of us.
andrew, brian(my wacky cousins), melissa, jonathan, isaac, isiah (did I spell that right? he was playing com games, making sound effects and kind of talking to the com.)(the 2 'I's are my nephews><) and me.
i was the wierd dealer. kept changing the dealing pattern. lol
they were calling me the general emo. dont ask me why. they were coming up with wierd acronyms for GE (gifted education -.-)
i took a video of pillowfight, round 1.(melissa and andrew) i'll send it to melissa to post it on youtube then i'll upload it. the 'reporter' is brian -_-
some time before that (i think) we were throwing a pillow around and andrew opened the door and yelled "mummy they beat me!!!'
spoilt brat. 20 plus and working and still depends on his mom for stuff like that :/
completely missed ndp except for some red and green flag thing, we ditched it for olympics. wonder how it was in the rain. pity the parade people.
sian.
haha something from last comp train:
sgt liwen (or was it sgt wenzhong?): ok lets do this last drill and finish up today's comp train. sekuad sediya!
*pause.*
rongying: *clap*
everyone else: ROFLMAO
>< heh rongying's funny. (: if you're reading this, hi rongying! =D
I stopped ranting at | 2:48 AM
this post's been deleted.
because it's too emo and not everyone should be reading it.
read the NEXT post instead!
if i've bothered to write it, that is.(:
yup.
thanks christine.
i'm a crappy _______
sorry ________s.
I stopped ranting at | 3:29 AM
not much time, but i shall quote some random incidents/quotes from class and some from hera comp train! don't ask me when they were. i cant remember.
class:
(GAP day, before GAP):
zl- yakyakyak
hansiang-eh, jacob what the heck are you doing?!
jacob: @$%!# *turns out that jacob wasnt paying attention to what he was doing and tried to screw hansiang's bottle cap onto his bottle of mo (aka chinese ink)* oops sorry! no wonder lah, i was wondering why i couldnt screw it on properly
-_-
bp class:
*some of the girls are are giving a sort of english review on shui3 jing1 bao1*
nicole: the second story is called "The Bun"
everyone else: ROFLMAO
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hera comp train: (not in order><)
rongying: help call ambulance 995 and get AED!
cpl sgt liwen: ah, what does AED stand for?
rongying: *tries again* help call ambulance 995 and get AED, Automated External Defibrilator!
rongying: help call ambulance 995 and get AED
AHEMlol she had a sore throat, which explains the "AHEM"
jiatai: *after finishing cpr and av sequences* sir, i will now put you-
sgt(but actually still cpl then, but anyway.) yuekho: PUT
ME?!
ahaha. classic. as quoted by our dear laujiatai.
rongying: sir are there any foreign particles in the mouth?
sgt liwen: eh you mean got abrasion in the mouth ah?
lol.
***
wish i could post more.
but i must do PORTFOLIO, study for tmr's GEOG and er... ah yes. GEOG FILING.
gah. wish me luck/ bless me.
and before i forget:
you probably won't ever read this, but if you do, thanks for lending me the buttons staff Xunlin. Yep and got a new one already, so don't worry about me asking you again(:
because i've resolved never to lose it again. ever.
yes. and i shall start chionging. NOW.
cheers!
I stopped ranting at | 4:40 AM
